Progressive Maturity

Shoes

sania — Fri, 04 Mar 2011 15:20:27 +0000

Shoes *sigh*. One thing that almost always fit. I am really big on shoes. Of the many things i want in life,one of them is to own a pair of Louboutin with the trademarked red sole .Well that said, i am not much of a brand conscious person.
If i see what i like i almost always buy it. This month i have burned great big holes into my pockets by spending all that i have on shoes. These days shopping is justified because i tell myself that i need to gradually shop for stuff to take from here. But the good thing about me is that i always utilize my shopped items. For instance I bought shoes yesterday and have worn it 10 times already during the day
But i had to buy these shoes. “black pumps never really go waste” i saw them and my heart skipped a beat. I had to buy them and i did. These shoes are magical

You, Me and a little bit of Narcissism

sania — Wed, 02 Mar 2011 18:49:13 +0000

Me =>
I talk an awful lot about myself. All the time. I always have something to say, even at the oddest moments. Even when you aren’t supposed to speak, or technically when it is impossible to speak, i speak.
All the time.
high, sober, sad, happy, angry(oh then i speak a lot), shy, embarrassed, in agony, in pain, basically always!

Maybe that makes me a fun person. I was recently told by a friend that i quickly become one of the most interesting person in a group. To which i responded “What! TAKE THAT BACK..i am no namoona ”
In retrospect, it was a fantastic compliment!

I talk so much about myself, narcissism runs in my blood. Ashish, who without doubt is a bigger narcissist than I puts it in a nice way; he says whats wrong with narcissism? we behave this way because we are surrounded by narcissist, and humans imitate the behavior of others in their surroundings.
So next time you call me one, look in the mirror, i might as well be one because i hang out too much with you!
Howzzaat!

To the above statement, Rukmini would beg to differ. She thinks she isn’t one. Reality check for you Ruku you are one too!
I have sat through umpteen conversations which begin with “I have become so ugly”, ” My skin”, “My life”,”My dog” “My,My My…!”

I will be visiting Universities this month and my biggest concern is What will i say to the faculty, what will i talk to them about?
To that Anwesha responded “Itna toh bolti ho, wahan bhi wohi karna..badd badd”

It’s nice to talk, i guess. I have a lot of “This one time at…” stories. I can’t help it. I know a lot of interesting people.
I was one of the girls who had Double Ticks on the Report Card in the section ‘Talks too much in class’
From the above piece of information it wouldn’t be surprising if i told you that i had a bunch of chalk pieces around my desk, all thrown by teachers at me to get my attention in class.

Narcissism runs in my family i guess. My dad checks himself out in EVERY mirror that he passes by. One time i saw him checking himself out in the mirror while he was praying .
He once told me that he can’t really control it. I now understand it fully, i take after my dad!
But for me it doesn’t stop there, i have this self portrait obsession also. But i can explain that. I feel i take really good pictures of myself. Others just make me look stupid.
I have this fantasy, that some fancy photographer will discover me in the streets and take beautiful pictures of me . Not that i want to be on TIME magazine cover, like that afghan girl!

So anyway that was that. I also have this desire to be on a talk show like Oprah’s
But listen to this, not for my own achievements, i want to be there for my spouse’s achievements. I would often watch the NBA players wives on Oprah and they had the best stories to tell, and Oprah would always ask them, How has this changed your life, and they always gave the “It really hasn’t, the feeling hasn’t sunk in, i am the same person”. “Yeah right!” to that!

I want to do that too, lie on a talk show talk in this low key voice, pretend to be introverted and shy of the media speculation

I have such weird dreams and fantasies. If any one of them comes true, i think i will be more embarrassed than excited.

Also another wild fantasy -> get discovered and act in a movie. I Once asked Bo, if it was possible to get noticed while in a university, and he let me down hard.He said “That NEVER happens, you want to do this, hire an agent and audition! “. Now that is soo much work, who wants to do that?, and then again it is just a wild fantasy, i have no ambitions of making a career out of it!

That was so much ranting (as always) about myself.

The YOU part =>

On a serious note-Why is everybody getting married this year? what is so special about this year?
My Guy friends are getting married. Rathi was nice enough to promise me that we will get married but not have babies till i get married.
But he later added i shouldn’t test him too much and that given the rate at which i am going, he should technically be bringing his teenagers to my wedding.

These couple of weeks have been nice. I have had a lot of fun. Met old friends. Felt loved, which is always such a nice feeling
I am always very thankful for my friends.
What else,
For the most special ppl in my life ->
Ashish,you rock man! I love you more than you know,i love your school, i love the place, and i love your attitude towards it.You are going to do great in life, i know it, i can feel it

Saunain, i don’t need to tell you guys what you mean to me. Our beauty, we don’t need to really say it, saying it makes it shallow somehow when it comes to you guys. i know that no matter where i am , i will tell you EVERYTHING that goes on in my life ALWAYS. it should serve as a good aid if i get Alzheimer’s

DD, DT and Palloma: you guys know it already.

Well that was that. Phew…load off my chest!

@Supreet: Thanks for reminding me that i own a blog and should update it sometimes!
It was fun writing this.
Maybe this time you should comment

Ta!
Sania

Show review-Shameless

sania — Tue, 11 Jan 2011 16:48:07 +0000

Last night I watched this pilot of the TV show called Shameless.It’s aired on Showtime on Sunday.
Shameless has been americanized and remade,it is based on the British show of the same name. The pilot was directed by the same guy who makes the British show so i think it will pretty much be the same, but with an easier accent to follow

So about shameless-it is about this Drunk man who has six children.The show is about how the children are on their own and how they survive. It’s a really good show.I thought it would have the whole ” i sell drugs and abuse” but it’s not like that. It’s looks and sounds really realistic and i think everybody does a great job.

I really liked it. I did not expect anything out of it and it took me by surprise.

if you are reading this then maybe you should watch it too. I totally recommend it, if that matters

Ta!
Sania

The Last Day of the Year

sania — Fri, 31 Dec 2010 09:54:36 +0000

Tis the last day of the year and a post about it is mandatory.

So what is it about the last day of the year, when you put everything for January 1st.
I’ll eat today, will start dieting from Tomorrow.
I’ll waste time today, i’ll start studying from tomorrow.
I’ll laze around the whole day, i’ll get organized from tomorrow.

There is this charm about New Year’s resolutions. I love making them. Even if i don’t go through them till the finish, atleast a few months of motivation helps to get something constructive done.

So how was 2010?
It was a good year for me. Did i lot, learnt a lot, thought a lot, traveled a lot, shopped a lot,read a little, got wiser, got thinner, got darker, got gut-sier, got funnier(:P ), had fun, became less judgmental, experienced art, read poetry, took deep plunges,was less shallower than usual, was friendlier, was more understanding, was less cranky, felt older, looked older and so on and so forth.

So what has 2011 in store for me?
Well…Plan A has to work, if not find a plan B,
Make plan B work.
Other than that…umm..
To GRADUATE!
To do new things in life=>learn French or spanish
=>learn how to dance
=>Maybe get hair highlights
=>run a marathon…:P
=>Travel
=>Become Cooler
=>Be able to wear racer backs, jodhpuris and things like that and pull it off
=>Party Hard…or alteast try doing that.
=> Find a GUY like ANDY Samberg or SETH Meyers

New Year Wishes to all who reached this part of the page
Ta!
Sania

Updates

sania — Wed, 15 Dec 2010 20:06:36 +0000

So it’s been rather long since i came here to write.
i have been busy and awfully lazy to have written here. That sounded better in my head than here
It’s become cold here, which is surprising and a little annoying. Just this time i went and left most of my woolens back home because i always felt that they took too much of closet space and i never got a chance to really wear them. Now it’s cold here, how fantastic is that!
Well not as fantastic as when i reached Delhi in the end of November without any warm clothes. That was classic, and so funny in retrospect!

Life’s been the usual. A little calmer now. Works catching up but its very manageable that is if i do it on time.
I am too big a procrastinator to make good use of the time. so generally it just piles up and then it seems like digging a mountain.

I really want to be able to go somewhere nice for the Holidays but i don’t see myself going anywhere. I guess i’ll just stick around here.

Maybe I will read a little. Maybe that is what my New Year’s resolution should be. Read a lot Eat a little!
Sometimes i wish that there were a book club kind of thing here where it sorta becomes mandatory to read and discuss what you’ve read. It would be so much fun to do that. It’s hard to find those kind of people here. Who would read and discuss things.

So what else is up…hmm.I feel like doing something really whacky..maybe highlight my hair blue or something like that, but at the same time i am way to lazy to do the after care which is like mandatory with these things.

I am such a big slob. I wouldn’t do anything if it were upto me.

Well there is not much that I can think of to write here at this moment but i promise to return here soon and write some more relevant stuff.

Ta!
Sania

Here,There and Every where in Between

sania — Fri, 03 Sep 2010 09:07:37 +0000

It’s been a while since i visited my own blog…I feel bad about this web space going waste.If i don’t have the enthusiasm to visit my own creation then how can i really expect people to do the same.
Guilt has its own great ways of tormenting the soul and i succumbed to the powers of guilt and decided to write here.

I have become much of a traveler these past few months.Have had the good fortune to travel far and wide and experience the Wild Wild West

Between May and August i feel so rich in intellect and art thanks to all the museums i visited in these months.Sometimes(more often these days) i feel that the best job for me would have been of an art critic.How i would have loved to go around examining works of art and giving my “Expert” opinion on it. I would have been such an adept.
This profound idea crept into my mind when i met a professor of Art History in the Louvre, and how his immense knowledge of the arts enthralled me.I would have given him my youth in exchange of his knowledge.

Over these past few months i had another divine intervention: There is nothing more powerful than knowledge. Nothing else except knowledge can make me genuflect unless off course you are Jude Law to which i would worship you nonetheless.

I have met powerful people,power deriving its source from knowledge.With the great deal of expertise that they have they are at this pedestal which is difficult to reach from where i am standing.I am an aspiring “knowledge seeker” ,a wannabe intellect,I want to be Sir Oracle that when i ope my lips let no dog bark…(oh! how Shakespeare’s quotes are etched in my memory)

My experience this summer has been truly worthwhile. i got to travel ( for free in most cases) ,see new places,beautiful places, meet interesting people, meet more interesting people, get appreciated for my work(which is a rarity), travel as a family(which is rare) ,travel alone(which is exciting),go to places where i don’t speak their language( which is frustrating), not getting lost on the roads(which is astonishing),trying my luck with men( who turned out to be married),getting hit on by men who should have been married by now,eating yummy food, shopping, window shopping at the costliest places on the planet, calling the police at the house, flooding the kitchen with dish soap, catching fireflies,betting on racehorses, mowing the lawn,eating Japanese food,staying over at friends and basically having a very good time.
I don’t think anything can top my summer of 2010 experience.Its something that i would fondly remember for the rest of my life.Its one of those things that you tell at parties when you are 30 and to your grandchildren when you are 70…its the summer of my youth.Its the year i would cherish the most.Its the year that has meant the most to me in all my life for so many reasons. Its the year i went to my first conference,got treated as royalty,presented my work,got to see van Gogh’s work,Vermeer’s work and Monalisa smile all in the span of a small but fruitful summer.

Now my soul can rest in peace,i really have no complaints from life

Ta!
Sania

Long time no See

sania — Fri, 13 Aug 2010 13:00:00 +0000

It’s been quite long since i wrote here.i almost felt bad for not writing here
Things have been quite busy and i never found the time to write here.The weird thing is that when a lot is happening in my life I can’t really think of blogging about it and on the other side when life is almost static i can go on and on about the smallest and the most minuscule things in life.

Anyway it’s been rather hectic on the social front i mean
I am not used to this kind of life here.My social life was almost non existent till i guess very recently. So it’s a lot of fun on the weekends.I have been having a nice-ish time.I like how things are now.It’s nice to meet up with people.Hang out with the ones you really love and just have a fabulous time laughing on the most non sensible things that one can imagine.

Reds…you will always be my Number 1
Palloma- you know i love you,yes you doooo

Ta,
Sania

Little children and FASHION

sania — Tue, 18 May 2010 19:30:13 +0000

I am sitting here and watching this obnoxious TV show-Toddlers and Tiara..
I can’t believe they let these things being shown on TV.it’s about little children,4 years old and they are competing for a beauty pageant.They have a coach for the ramp walk,their talent.These 4-5 year girls are getting their eyebrows done!
:-O

They are being made to wear make up and talk about how they want to compete.it is so wrong on all levels.With hair relaxers and rollers in their head what are their parents trying to achieve?
I wonder how these kids will grow up to be?
They have their nails French manicured at the age of 5!
What is wrong with the people here?
Sometime back i saw this episode on the Tyra show about African American women chemically straightening
their 3 year daughter’s hair.

All this is just too disturbing…

Ta!
Sania

Swan Lake

sania — Fri, 07 May 2010 11:57:04 +0000

Today is the 170th Birthday of Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky,and thanks to Google i know that.
I think he was a beautiful composer.I haven’t heard much of his compositions but i have heard the ballet Swan Lake though i remember more of the dance in it than the music

I haven’t watched many ballets.To be precise i have seen only Swan Lake and i have LOVED it.I have heard of The Sleeping Beauty and The Nutcracker Prince,and besides that i do not even know the names of any other performances.So i am no expert of any kind when it comes to this.Nonetheless i find it very captivating and enthralling.

There were two pictures hung in the Loreto Convent Junior School hall,(I hope they are still there) and when i was a little child they always fascinated me.They were pictures of women doing ballet and everything about it looked so pretty.Once,when i must have been 5, i managed to stand on a chair and reach the picture to read the inscription on the frame and it said ” From the ballet Swan lake” .I remember memorizing the name and i found it so magical.Till then i only knew the story of the ugly Duckling who became a beautiful swan and that was magical itself.
I remember rehearsing the whole day,and when i say rehearse i mean rehearse in English and finally i managed to gather the courage and i asked my piano/singing teacher in school if she knew any songs from Swan Lake.I remember her surprise and after that she for some reason started to really like me and even though i was not a singer or knew how to play the piano i was never chucked out of the Choir ,until offcourse she retired,which was 2 years later

She also showed us the movie of Swan Lake and i remember watching the performance and being captivated by it.The beautiful dance.It was just so wonderful.

I think ballet is just so beautiful.It portrays femininity in a very sterotypical form but i do like it.graceful women dancing with so much beauty.I so do wish that i get to watch a ballet performance once in my life.
It would be just so wonderful

If i get to watch the Swan Lake it would be very
I love the story .it so magical and the ending is just so beautiful…

Ta!
Sania

One and Only

sania — Mon, 26 Apr 2010 14:04:16 +0000

This post has been long overdue.
Offlate I have been on a Jude law movie spree.I cant call it much of a spree because i could hardly find any time the past 2 weeks to breathe,sleep or do the mundane activities of everyday life.But of whatever little time i got i used it to watch and rewatch bits and pieces,little segments of Jude Law movies.

It’s not unusual for me to be doing it but the reason why i am on a strictly Jude Law diet (:P ) is that some time back i watched Dear John and was oogling over Channig Tatum,and then the very next day i saw Prime and was all drool faced over the lead.While i was doing this something inside of me was hurting really bad and calling me an infidel.That was my love conscience reminding me of my undying love for Jude Law.

Being of a rather conscientious nature, i gave in to my unrequited love for Jude Law.
I put a full stop to all the ooglling over some washboard abs guy and decided to re dedicate my love to Jude Law.

Since then I have been only watching his movies.Though it is rather hard to find them on DC++ maybe because people do not appreciate Quality and charm that Jude Law has to offer

The first movie that i saw of Jude Law was The Talented Mr Ripley in 1999 and since then my passion for him has not seized.

I find myself having to rewatch things because i do not remember what happened in the scenes right after Jude Law’s scenes.I blush at the mere mention of his name and while i was watching The Holiday in the theater i kept turning Red each time Jude law Looked right into the camera and gave his very charming smile that makes his eyes glisten a little

There is just so much charm in him that i can feel it flow out of the screen.
This is such a teenager “Dear Diary” type of post
Nevertheless it is true, I am to Jude Law what Meera Bai was to Krishna

Ta!
Sania

PS:Some Jude Law Movies that are a must watch
1)Alfie for his wit and CHARM
2)Sleuth for his brilliant performance
3)Cold mountain Just so awesome
4)The Holiday because he is so lovable in it
5)Closer It’s Julia Roberts and Natalie Portman romancing him…that is worth a watch
6)All the Kings men Kate winslet and Sean Penn are the added attractions.
7)Sherlock Holmes (he looked hot as Dr watson also …beat that! )

Others that are nice as well:
Breaking and entering
Enemy at the Gates
The Talented Mr Ripley (great watch,but more of a Matt Damon movie)